On habitual patterns, junk drawers, and choosing to light up your whole being
The Banana Slide
To mobilize oneself to take action in a new direction, different from the banana slide of habitual patterns, takes the internal focus and recruitment of power, as you can imagine would be needed to lift a car.
Not easy and totally possible.
The more we exercise our individual internal powers to choose to move our thoughts and energies in a direction of conscious choice, the more and more capacity and true power we begin to realize – exceeding our own expectations and visions.
This takes the linear part of the human mind that is wrapped up in the world of matter, into the world of non-linear spirit, dissolving the “ego body.” Blowing our mind, as we say.
Most of us stay on the slide because it is familiar. The slide carries us away from the places within ourselves that feel uncomfortable, uncertain, intense, or unresolved. We don’t have to choose – we simply ride.
But what if the very places we spend our lives avoiding are the places that hold the keys to our greatest capacities?
String of Lights
Non-linear reality is just as real as what we see, hear, taste, touch and feel. We have simply not utilized our capacities to remember the whole reality, therefore our full sensitivities have atrophied.
We have become highly trained in perceiving what is measurable, visible, and tangible, while neglecting the subtler dimensions of experience: intuition, resonance, synchronicity, symbolic language, knowing without reasoning, and the intelligence that moves beneath conscious thought.
Much like a muscle that weakens through disuse, our ability to perceive the deeper currents of life becomes dormant when all of our attention is directed toward the material world alone.
Why would this ever be important?
Because we have access to only half of our highest potentials and capacities while in tunnel vision mode, entrained by matter and stories of mainstream, not animated by the full current of life.
The non-linear dimension of reality is not separate from everyday life. It is the living field from which insight emerges, creativity arrives, healing unfolds, and meaningful coincidence seems to orchestrate itself. It is the realm in which life becomes participatory rather than merely observational.
Like a bunk set of Xmas lights, only needing one tiny little light bulb to be adjusted for the whole string to light up – we have to find the lights on our string that need a little screw and screw them.
However, the challenge is that the loose bulbs are rarely found in the places we are comfortable looking.
The Junk Drawer
Touching that threshold feeling that’s so intense, like receiving a shock from an electrical device, or getting a tattoo, or a wasabi nostril burn, or ice cream brain freeze, or the electricity of a touch from a lover. I like gently loving up into these places, as they tamper with all those trigger points that bring up some of the most interesting and hard to look at, stored stuff.
These threshold feelings are often the doorway. The places we instinctively recoil from, distract ourselves from, or try to move past quickly, often lead directly to the material we’ve tucked away.
Clean out the junk drawer. We all have one, no?
Interesting to look at where the physical spaces, sensations and locations are that we consciously/unconsciously avoid dipping into. And then dip a toe in. See how long you can keep it in there. Day one – 1 sec. Day two – 5 secs. Baby steps of growing deeper into all the selves in the self.
The junk drawer is not the problem. The avoidance of it is the problem.
Every habitual pattern exists, at least in part, to keep us from feeling something. To keep us from opening a drawer we would rather leave closed. Yet every time we are willing to stay present for one second longer than before, another loose bulb gets tightened.
Another forgotten part of ourselves comes back online.
The How
Notice when you are riding downhill on an old banana slide of habitual thought/word/action – and tap into your full power by remembering what really matters. Muster all your powers and get off the banana slide.
Choose to choose thoughts/words/actions that light up your whole being. Then, instead of running from the discomfort, get curious about it. Open the drawer. Sit with what you find there. Stay one breath longer than is comfortable.
Because that’s what screwing in the loose bulb actually is. A tiny adjustment, a moment of noticing, a choice to choose differently, and suddenly the whole string lights up.
The slide, the string of lights, the junk drawer – they’re all pointing to the same thing. A willingness to reclaim the parts of ourselves we have left in the dark.
Love you,
Meghan